Sigh, vacation is over, and I am sad. I want, no need more time.
I have looked at my email for the last couple of days, just trying to gauge how bad the dig out will be.
Oh, it’s bad; real bad.
There are about half a dozen speaking invitations, a ton of data requests, surveys to be reviewed, and just stuff that needs to be dealt with. I don’t want to deal with any of it.
I say no to most speaking engagements these days. 1) Folks want the same dog and pony show over and over again; it’s boring. 2) I rarely get the sense that these groups are interested in truly substantive change, and I’m not wasting my time. 3) It feels…clout chasey. Like, if I come then they can check a box. I am not special, but I do know the role I play in my space and in my small pond, I guess I’m a “get.” I don’t like that feeling. I geek out over big speakers at our conference or at conferences I’m attending; I wonder how those folks feel about folks being so excited to hear you–I imagine for some it must be uncomfortable. I don’t like it.
So, I”ll reread everything over the next couple of days and figure what gets accepted and what doesn’t.
Hope went back to work the day after we got back from our trip. She wasn’t happy about it but now that she has a job, she’s eager to get her hours in.
I’m also taking the opportunity to revamp my eating and workout habits. Logging my food is something I hate, but is something that immediately changes my behavior. I’m also working on being more intentional about my workouts. I’ve got about 18 months before I turn 50(!) and I want to feel stronger than I am and I want to love myself more than I currently do. Being modestly more disciplined is the path to that.
I’m on Fitbit, and I stay in challenges; I’m going to work on being more intentional for a while.
I”m also much more inclined to consider taking an international trip before the end of the year. I think I want a good beach trip in the Caribbean, but I also want to have some adventure. We’ll see. I’m worried about the new COVID variants. I and everyone I know is vaccinated, but I’m still a bit worried. Time will tell.
So, tomorrow is another day. It’s another chance to get this life thing right.