September 14, 2014

I Hope – Part 1

I hope:

That the trauma monsters stop chasing us.
That Hope is freed from her fears of the past.
That we are freed from depression.
That our hot tempers cool with time.
That our patience grows.
That Hope grows up to be confident, self-assured and well adjusted.
That the next round of music lessons aren’t audibly painful.
That Hope grows to like some kind of physical activity.
That one day I won’t be shocked by all the movies that have adoption sub-themes.
That I will feel caught up with work, life and parenting one day.
That bio-aunt stops sending me chain emails…boundaries, people, boundaries. #icant #noreally #icant
I’ll get back to hitting happy hour with some some frequency in the next 5 years.
That I’ll be ready for another fur baby next year sometime.
That I can pull off a trip abroad next spring for us.
That one day I won’t have to ask if the bed has been made or the room has been tidied.
That one day she won’t be afraid of so many things.
That one day I’ll have a husband.
That I am able to model healthy relationships for Hope.
That her math skills will improve.
That we continue to have therapeutic breakthroughs.
That I won’t have to hide my favorite food forever.
That I find a spirit of sharing.
That my faith continues to grow.
That I can meet my first weight loss goal by year’s end.

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7 responses to “I Hope – Part 1”

Susan
September 14th, 2014 at 7:56 pm

That was really inspiring. I want some of those things too!!!! Thanks for making me think about them again. 🙂

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Susan
September 14th, 2014 at 7:57 pm

Hmm… lol that reply (mine) sounded kind of selfish. I hope all of that for you too.

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- AdoptiveBlackMom
  September 14th, 2014 at 10:14 pm
  
  Hahahah! Glad it resonated! 🙂 Hopeful for you too! 🙂
  
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puddin85
September 14th, 2014 at 8:55 pm

* Looks around my own dirty room and holds head in shame* haha. Beautiful list

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- AdoptiveBlackMom
  September 14th, 2014 at 10:15 pm
  
  Hey, we all have things we hope for. 🙂
  
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SerialAdopter
September 15th, 2014 at 9:36 am

Great list – that movie one so resonants with me. Seems like every time I decide on a family movie night I’m blindsided by something adoption/loss related. Sheesh.

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momto3sugars
September 16th, 2014 at 8:03 am

I love these! My theme for this year is “HOPE,” so it was great to read what you hope for! We lost a fur baby right before a move a few years ago and it was one of the worst things that ever happened to our family! She was just such a part of our lives and we never thought we could love another puppy again! After some time our hearts did heal enough to try and now we have our sweet “Puddin!”

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