Ahhhhh, this week has been…good.
Sometimes I find myself crawling to Friday evenings. I’m tired, worn out and emotionally drained. This week, I’m happy to report, I only felt tired and worn out.
I wasn’t emotionally drained! In fact there were many more moments this weekend when I thought, “THIS is what I thought life would be like as a mom!!”
I haven’t had a week like this in a while. I needed it. Hope needed it.
So what was different about this week?
I colored. I colored a lot. It really is meditative; it is calming and my tolerance for everything is a bit higher when I color. Of course, I’m coloring so much that I’m worried about my healing hand…repetitive movements are probably not all that great post-op for carpal tunnel. #whatever
I was in bed by 10, 10:30 at the latest. Sleep is restorative, and Yappy is a precious cuddle bug.
I worked out everyday. Fitbit challenges have me going hard daily! I’m hitting 5-6 miles of steps a day. That’s definitely contributed to good headspace.
I felt good after seeing friends and family over Thanksgiving.
I realized that I’m not alone on this journey.
Hope and I stayed away from meat this week after she announced her desire to go vegetarian recently. I didn’t eat much meat before Hope came along, so two years of hardcore carnivorous behavior has wreaked havoc on my body. ABM’s bod was much happier being more plant based and Hope LOVED my veggie cooking.
And finally Hope, Yappy and I had quality, real bonding quality time this weekend.
For once, I took care of myself and committed to meeting my own needs. know that every week won’t be like this, but dang it; I feel like a new person. It’s a powerful reminder that we parents need to practice routine self-care. The absolute bonus was getting a peek at the life I aspire to; it was totally dope!
The other bonus I discovered was that Hope’s behavior was dramatically different after pulling back on the meat. I hope that it continues; I hope it’s sustainable. It was dramatic. She was more focused, more thoughtful, more motivated about school. She was a bit more mellow. Hell, we may never eat meat again! (Hahahahah, just joking, I like bacon way too much.)
One of our weekend movie nights was Inside Out; I wish I’d gone to see it in the theater. If you have or know an adolescent and have any curiosity about the mayhem going on inside their heads emotionally, this is the movie for you. Today we talked a bit about how Hope felt when she moved here to be with me, when she started a new school and just day to day emotional upheaval. Being a teen ain’t easy; being a teen who’s a former long-term foster kid, now adoptee ain’t a walk in the park either. I can’t pretend to get it, but I feel a little closer to getting it and that’s important.
I’m optimistic. I’m going to keep plugging away and hoping that things will settle down for a little while. It’s nice to have a little less drama during a time known for lots of it.