Sometimes I Remember

Often times, I focus so much on how wretchedly difficult parenting and parenting through trauma can be. It can be overwhelming, so overwhelming that…

…that I forget how awesome this life is.

I have this amazing, resilient daughter who is vibrant, smart, sassy and a total badass.

Despite what sometimes feels like countless challenges, Hope has forced inspired so much personal growth in me. I am more patient marginally, more creative by essential necessity, and more curious about how to beat the steady stream of challenges.

Hope has made me a better person even when sometimes I feel like a miserable mom and human being.

Sometimes I forget all of this and only remember the tough parts.

But today, when I called in sick even though I’m fine, I had a moment when I remembered how awesome this life is.

This is the life I wanted even if I didn’t anticipate how hard it would be.

All of the love, all of the drama, and all of the mothering and daughtering.

Sometimes most of the time it’s pretty damn awesome.