- I’ve been doing yoga nearly every day since December 1st 2020. I used to do an annual December self-challenge to practice every day. It was a great way to end the year taking some time to stretch (literally and physically) and to recalibrate mentally and spiritually. I fell out of it for a few years and decided to reengage with my practice in December.
- The first few weeks were hard. I was forced to face just how limited my body was in terms of mobility and flexibility. It took nearly two weeks to really embrace the rhythm and ritual of practice.
- During week three I pulled a muscle in my neck. My body was telling me I was pushing too hard, too fast so I pulled back and worked on more gentle postures and not pushing my body past the brink.
- On New Years, I figured, I can continue this for another month. And in spite of a shitastic month, I did.
- Every night, I roll out a mat and stretch and bend. I pay attention to what is tight, what is limber. My practice is free flow. I haven’t been interested in too many standing postures at this point; maybe next month.
- Maybe next month…so here we are nearly at the end of January and I’m thinking hey, I think it can do it another month.
- It is a few minutes a day when I just breathe and let the thoughts just wash over me. I just let my body move.
- Yesterday I realized that I can now get really deep into some postures that were beyond me 2 months ago. I was shocked. I was like, “Is my whole torso really laying on my leg right now? Like without hurting?” In the midst of sooooo much personal chaos my body is still working and thriving. It was a revelation.
- I’ve also gotten back into taking luxurious baths. Hope bought me one of those bathtub caddy things with a place for your tablet, a glass, etc. I have made a point to take a long, hot, healing bath at least once a week. I got all out—bubble bath, booze, my kindle or my phone to stream something. I light candles. I stay in there until I’m prune-like and the water is cold. I often am not ready to get out, so I let some water out and run some more hot water. I have some CBD bath bombs and it really is just such a wonderful experience, especially after I have calmed myself with some yoga. (I’m about to run a bath as soon as I post this because…Wednesday.)
- While I definitely have been pushed to the brink, I am doing what I can to practice some self-care. I’m hydrating. I just bought an under-desk treadmill—it arrived today and it’s MAGICAL. I’m cooking the comfort foods that I like and eating in moderation. I’m doing the things I should be doing to take care of me. I still need to take some time, but I’m doing what I can under the circumstance.
January 27, 2021
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January 27th, 2021 at 10:30 pm
Under the desk treadmill? Do tell! Also: I realized that my tub, which I so loved months ago when it was new? Has been neglected. It became clearer to me: lack of its use is lack of my baseline self-care. Time to do better. I appreciate this, nay, these posts. Thank you.
January 27th, 2021 at 11:54 pm
Thank you for taking care of you and reminding us to do the same for us. Please keep on taking care of you and teaching Hope and us to also.
January 28th, 2021 at 9:32 pm
Thank you Rose. ❤️
I am really trying to step up my game on being kind to myself. Writing about it keeps me honest about it, so thank you for reading.❤️
January 28th, 2021 at 10:40 am
Good for you! I have to ask, what is a CBD bath bomb? I do believe I want one! 🙂
January 28th, 2021 at 9:31 pm
So it’s a bath bombs with cannabis, but not the THC, just full spectrum CBD. The indica strains are soo relaxing. Bath perfection!
I get mine from a local shop. https://www.districthempstore.com/.
Black woman owned!
January 29th, 2021 at 9:35 am
This sounds like heaven. Good for you!